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Thursday, September 29, 2005Holy cow... Spooky! |
| Here's a great way to waste a bit of time. It really spooked me out when I got the results! http://www.crush007.com/love.cgi?id=1127988937spc listening to: Yellowcard - Breathing |
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Just one of those days. |
Right now I wonder why I even bothered to get out of bed this morning. It would have been safer and less taxing to just hide in the safety of my bed. Obviously, today was a shitty day. I don't have the energy to go into all the details, here's a quick list of some of the crap I've been wading through today. You know it's a shitty day when... That's just a sample. The shit was dropping by the bucket earlier. But there were a few shining moments. Some inspirational texts from friends (Thank you so much!) and some upperclassmen helped me out with my Design 1 plate. On a scale of 1-10 for shittiness, today was a 9. listening to: Saosin - Seven Years |
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In your eyes... |
| I Caught Fire The Used Seemed to stop my breath My head on your chest Waiting to cave in From the bottom of my... Here your voice again Can we dim the sun.. And wonder where we've been. Maybe you and me so.. Kiss me like you did My heart stopped beating Such a softer sin. I'm Melting.. I'm Melting (Chorus) In your eyes.. I lost my place Could stay a while And I’m melting In your eyes.. Like my first time That I caught fire Just stay with me, lay with me now. Never caught my breath Every second I’m without you, I’m a mess Ever know each other Trust these words are stones Why cuts aren't healing? Learning how to love I'm melting, I'm melting (Chorus) Stay with me, lay with me now. You can stay and watch me fall And of course I’ll ask for... (Background Scream) Help...... Just stay with me now We can take our pants off, stay in bed Just make love, that's all Just stay with me now I'm melting, I'm melting (Chorus x2) (Background on 2nd Chorus) Stay with me, lay with me In your eyes Let's sleep till the sun burns out I'm melting in your eyes I'm melting in your eyes Let's sleep till the sun burns out I'm melting in your eyes |
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Here we go again... |
| Ok, for the 1 or 2 people who actually read this, you're probably sick and tired of me and my nonstop barrage of melodrama. But bear with me, I have nothing else, nowhere else to go. In the past, whenever I couldn't fall asleep, I'd play this special playlist on my winamp. It's a collection of sounds of the ocean and chirping birds. Whenever that'd play, I'd be out in less than 5 minutes. After lying in bed for the past 30 minutes with my eyes closed, it's obvious that this is gonna be another one of those nights. So I tried the list again. Nothing. Sleep won't come easily anymore. Prayer after prayer, night after night, begging for at least a single night's rest, go unheard. Just what is God trying to tell me here? My eyebags are terrible. My stubble is getting longer from not having enough time to shave. Tomorrow will start off without any desire or energy to get out of bed. Well why should I? Oh yeah, I've got an exam in less than 6 hours. Yippie. This should be interesting. Fuck. Back to my bed. Maybe I'll have better luck this time. |
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Running out of gas |
| It's getting harder and harder to find reasons to smile nowadays. The past few weeks have been really tough on me... physically, emotionally and mentally. It's all taking its toll on me, bit by bit. I seriously don't know how much more I can take. What does a guy have to do to get a break around here? Prayer is the only source of sanctuary. A few weeks ago, stuff like this would just bounce off me like bullets off of Superman, but there's a big dose of kryptonite sapping away all my energy. Or maybe it's the other way around... Maybe it's my source of energy that's missing. Whatever. The past few days I've been forcing myself to get out of bed. Mind and body are unwilling to go on, but for some reason I've been able to make it to school to take my exams. What a major slump I'm in. What I wouldn't give for a nice escape. A good old vacation. Just something to reboot my system. Yeah right. Wishful thinking. It seems this merry-go-round of an ordeal is far from winding itself down. All I can hope to do is brace myself and hold on for as long as possible. listening to: Tupac - Keep Your Head Up |
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When it rains... |
| Things just continue to go wrong for me this week. It's getting really hard to roll with the punches dealt. How the hell should you face a shitstorm of epic proportions? Don't ask me. I just find myself fortunate enough to still be standing. The drafting board that had me so excited last week? It's side isn't straight, so it's pointless to use it for drafting. It'd have to be fixed before it can be used. The Math2 exam on Friday? I thought I aced it. Turns out I had a massive mistake which cost me a huge number of points. Stupidity at it's best. Saturday I went home to spend time with my little sis. It was ok and all, had lots of fun, but for some reason, mosquitos decided to feast on me while I was home. So now there are bites all over my body. Sunday afternoon, I went back home. We played a bit of badminton outside the house, just fooling around. There was one time that I accidentally scraped my racket against the concrete. Now there's a big scratch along the edge. Damn it. That night, Kay and I had dinner so we could talk, but there were too many distractions. On Monday, we met mom and dad at the airport. Instead of a Shuffle, they bought me a Creative Zen Nano Plus. It's ok, has alot of features I don't need, and has a LCD, and uses a AAA battery. It has 1 Gb of space, but I don't really need all that. The sound quality has alot to be desired though. According to the sites that I've checked out, the Shuffle has better sound quality, so I'm disappointed. Can't do anything about it. Beggars can't be choosers. Monday was even worse because there was a transport strike. Classes were supposed to be cancelled, but LCC still continued. I thought I'd be able to go home after going to the airport. Tough Luck. So I had attend Design1 at 7:30, had to take an exam in Math1, and found out my grade in my Math2 exam. The worst part was the weather. It was so damn hot. I felt like I could fry an egg on my head, add to that the fact that I had so much stuff to carry. My sweat was pouring by the bucketload. When I went home for lunch, there were NO jeepneys. I had to spend 10x more because I had to take a taxi. Then I had to go back for my class at 5:30, there was no way for me to get back. What a crock of shit. That night we played badminton. It was probably the worst I've played since I started. Nothing was going right for me. I did improve my smash a little, but over-all, I played like shit. Now my wrist hurts like hell and my whole body is sore. Today, I woke up so late. Had to skip breakfast/lunch so that I could get to class on time. Then I found out that I made ANOTHER careless mistake in my Graphics1 plate last Thursday. Instead of a perfect score, I had to settle for much less. Then I went home and just collapsed. This is getting so tiring. The whole week my insomnia's been draining me of even more energy. God, please help me. I don't know how much more I can take. listening to: Incubus - I Miss You (Acoustic) |
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Semi-shitty Day |
| What, you ask, is a semi-shitty day? Well, first of all, a shitty day is just a day that's gone straight down the crapper. Everything goes wrong and nothing can save it from its eternal shittiness but an act of God. A semi-shitty day, on the other hand, is pretty much a day that's really close to shitty, but something good can happen to prevent it from becoming 100% shitty. Today is a semi-shitty day. Borderline shitty, if you ask me. Even before it started, it was destined for shittiness. I had another lousy night's sleep. It's getting impossible to sleep when needed. Then I woke up late, so no breakfast for me. Then I had to rush to school so I could finish my Design plate. My brain just wasn't working. I was just staring at the plate, trying to figure out a design for the bedroom furniture we needed to draw. It took much longer than expected, so we had to go straight to our next class. Math1 wasn't so bad, but by the time we got out, hunger and exhaustion were taking thier toll on me. There were 2 hours before my next class, so I decided to go home and eat. On the way there, it felt as if my body was drifting away. Have you ever been so tired and hungry that it felt like you were going to collapse? That's how I felt. The energy was just gone. I was a walking corpse. Thank God I made it to the house. There was a nice big breakfast waiting for me, so I ate and ate and ate. It was just what the doctor ordered. Too bad I had to rush back to school to take a test. So a few minutes after finishing my meal, I had to go straight back. When I got back to school, things were pretty normal. However, it just so happened that the quiz was actually an Exam. It also turns out that the problems weren't as simple as expected. I spent the whole period trying to figure out just how to answer them. Fortunately for me, I was able to figure out what to do in the last 5 minutes of the class. Another disaster averted. Anyway, I guess I've been lucky today... I'm gonna try to just rest here at home and let the day end peacefully. listening to: Incubus - Echo |
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Good and Bad News |
| Uhm, first the good news. Yesterday, I was able to buy a drafting board for me to use here in the house. Now there's no worry whenever we have take-home Drafting plates or Design plates, because now I can get my work done here instead of having to find an unoccupied table at school. And lookie here, there's a Design plate for me to work on for Friday. Work work work. The bad news... two of the puppies died. One guy and one gal. listening to: 50 Cent - 21 Questions |
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100% Effective Family Planning Technique |
| Here's a link to JM's blog about Family Planning. Makes alot of sense, actually. Try it peeps! Family Planning WARNING, NOT SAFE FOR WORK! listening to: Snoop Dogg - Nuthin' but a G Thang feat. Dr. Dre |
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Ninja and Badminton? |
| Ok, don't laugh. These past few days we've been heading over to the local badminton courts. At first, I was reluctant to try. Sports aren't my thing, that's quite obvious to everyone who knows me. Physical activity does not suit me well, seeing as how my eye-hand coordination is shot to hell and my clumsiness is top notch. So what finally convinced me to go for it? Maybe because Kay was also starting to play. Maybe because everyone in the house was getting into it. Maybe because I was just really sick of sitting on my ass all the time. Maybe it was a way for me to get my mind off things. All I know is that one day they were just playing in the yard and I joined in. For some reason, it felt really good to smash the crap out of the shuttlecock. Ok, lets not draw any conclusions here. I didn't say I was any good, so don't expect me to be any sort of expert. Usually I'd be flailing my racket wildly and would be lucky just to hit the thing. Anyhoo, I do find the game fun and it's a way to get that much needed exercise. listening to: Coheed and Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic |
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Broken Biological Clock |
| For some strange reason, my biological clock has been going haywire lately. I sleep at around 1 in the morning, which is earlier than usual. But then I wake up in the middle of the night, usually around 4 then can't fall asleep again until an hour later. That makes me wake up later than normal, sometimes around 8 or 9 in the morning. During school days, that would mean certain death, since MWF classes start at 7:30. It doesn't end there. Even at that point, my body just won't seem to move and I fall asleep again. This morning I was out cold until 1 in the afternoon. Now that is just messed up. If my body clock doesn't adjust by Monday I'm dead meat. listening to: Yellowcard - Gifts and Curses |
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