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Thursday, July 28, 2005

Love and Trust

I was just reading JM's blog and read his post about the advice given from some call-in radio love advice show. Just wanted to share my own comments about this. It's kinda weird just last night, I just had a talk with Kay about trust, among other things.

To me, trust is crucial in any relationship. Love and trust go hand in hand. A relationship wouldn't work out if either partner doesn't trust the other. If you really love each other, what's there to worry about anyway?

I'm not saying that there should be a blind and absolute faith in your partner, sometimes a little jealousy (like what JM said) is healthy and shows that you're also worried about losing your partner. Never getting jealous at all kinda gives the impression that you don't give a shit.

Blindly believing hearsay, excessively checking your partner's cellphone, hacking their e-mail account, spying on them... that's kinda fucked up. Some of my friends have been in relationships like that, it ain't pretty.

In my own experience, it's healthy to always be open to your partner. Open in the sense that you're receptive and understanding. Also in the sense that you can always talk to them as well. Communication is very important in building up trust.

With Kay, it's such a blessing that we're both very open with each other about everything. That's one of the things that I love about her.

Ok ok ok, I'll stop myself before I get too mushy. This post has already taken enough time as it is, now I'm gonna be late for class! Gotta run!

Bottom line, folks:
Trust, good. Paranoia and plain out shadiness, bad.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Floods = Bad...

What a shitty day.

I just got home.

It's 11:30 pm.

The rain was pouring the whole day (and continues to pour as I type this post). It took me almost 2 and a half hours to commute home today. This is from Robinson's Place in Mandalagan to Sum-ag, which usually only takes me around 30-40 minutes.

Things started out normal enough, except for the excessive rain. Then halfway there, at Dunkin' Donuts, Araneta, I was surprised to see a large number of people waiting at the jeepney stop. For some reason, there were no jeepneys passing by from the next route (the route I needed to take). After about 30 minutes, only around 3 jeeps passed, but I couldn't get on because people were rushing to get on and I didn't want to get crushed.

Thoroughly pissed off and sick of waiting, I decided to take a jeep with a similar route, then take a taxi from a more convenient location (read: closer, therfore cheaper). This would solve two problems: One, having to stuff myself in a jeepney with other wet, tired people... And two, having to walk in the rain from the corner of my stop up to the house.

It was only when I got off the other jeep that I found out why there were hardly any jeeps from my route. There was a 2-3 foot deep flood along a 60 foot stretch of road. I watched as other cars tried to pass by. Some were successful, while others got their engines flooded and had to be towed out. After 3 taxis refused to go in that direction, I asked the next one if we could take a route around the flooded area. So much for being cheaper.

Well, a long taxi ride later, I finally got home. Stupid floods.

Friday, July 22, 2005

Love-struck Ninja

Darn, things have been really hectic with school lately, the rest of the time was spent as a lifeless heap on my bed. Haven't had much time to post. Well, here I am again, I have the whole night to gather my thoughts and put them into words.

After spending most of the week coughing my guts out and grabbing for tissue to stop my running nose, I'm starting to feel closer to my usual level of health. I'm not gonna say healthy, because Lord knows how messed up my system is. Actually, starting Wednesday, things were pretty much back to normal, just being slightly bothered with an annoying dry cough and sniffles up until now.

As posted earlier, Wednesday was our 8th month anniversary. It started out normal enough, I had class at 8 in the morning. Then around 9, I passed by the flower vendors near school to buy a single, white rose and went straight to Kay's house. She just got out of bed when I arrived and gave her the rose. Then she took a bath and got ready for work, after which, we headed to Robinson's to her office.

After my 1 o'clock class, we met up again later for lunch at Sbarro, then had dessert at Shakey's, where we sat and talked for a while before Kay had to run back to work. At that point, I didn't have anything to do until she got off work at 8, so I decided to take a much needed rest back at home.

Later that night we had dinner at one of our favorite restaurants, Imbiss. I really recommend anyone from Bacolod or just in town visiting to take the time to try and eat there. Yummy! But my favorite parts of the whole day were the times we would just sit and talk. That's what we did after dinner. Sigh, me so happy!

Last night, we had an extension to our monthiversary. We had dinner here at the house then watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle (trip!) while munching on chips and salsa.

Luv yah, Kay! Muah!

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

2/3 of a year? Time flies!

Timkaymanila_2Yey! It's our 8th monthiversary! I hope I'll be well enough to be with Kay today. We haven't been able to see each other since Monday night, and even then I was still too sick to be able to spend any quality time with her. I'll do my best to make up for lost time today.


Love ya, Bu!

Monday, July 18, 2005

Attack of the GERMS!!!

Crap... I'm sick. I feel horrible. Felt like crap starting Saturday, then it continued until today. The rain gave me a pounding several times today, and I'm feeling the after effects.

My whole body is sore, got a cough and my nose is running at high speed.

Just my luck that I've got an exam in Graphics 1 tomorrow. I'm so dead.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Drained...

Just got home from a long, hot weekend... Yesterday afternoon, I went home to Victorias because some relatives came home from California. The trip home was long, but thankfully it wasn't spent on a bus. DonĀ² and Paeng went home to Sagay, so they gave me a ride.

When I got home, no one was around, seems they all went up to the mountain resort. So I spent the afternoon watching my cousin's DVDs of MTV's Pimp my Ride - 1st Season. Somewhere in the middle, I fell asleep from exhaustion. Around 6 PM, I woke to the sound of my cousins coming into the house. Then we all had dinner together. After dinner, I just hung around with my cousins and chatted. A while later we all went up to the rooms upstairs. Actually, it was just me, my sis and my one cousin. I don't know how it started, but suddenly a crazy pillowfight ensued. My cousins are all around the same age as my sister, so I was surrounded by kids. 30 minutes later, I crawled out of the room, sweat-covered and gasping for breath.

Just then, they called us all down to pray the rosary together. After the rosary, I tried connecting to the internet... but the connection there is so shitty. Totally pissed me off. I continued to try to get a stable connection, but the darn thing just wouldn't give me a break. Annoyed, I decided to go to bed and text Kay til I fell asleep.

When I woke up, they were all coming back from Church. For some reason, it felt too early for them to be back, turns out one of my cousins fainted from the heat. I felt it too, the whole day it felt like the world was on fire. After lunch we all went to Bacolod to drop our visitors at the port. They were heading to Zamboanga to visit their other relatives. It was just our luck that the AC in the van was acting up, so we were riding around in a makeshift oven. The only relief we had was afterwards, when we went to the mall. But by that time I was sweaty and smelly. Crap.

Anyway, I stayed behind and did some much needed "essentials" shopping. Toothpaste and stuff. Then I waited for Kay to get off work and we went home.

Tomorrow, Mom and Dad will be leaving for Guam. They're gonna have a short vacation there, then come back home on Friday for Lolo's Death Anniversary.

On the iPod Shuffle front:
I'll have to wait until Thursday before my money will arrive. Damn it.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Unexpected plot twists... part two

Enough ranting about my non-existent iPod for now. Back to the story!

Ahem... Sometime in August, I met up with that friend of mine and he told me about his plan to open a multimedia studio. Told me all about his fancy Mac G5, blah blah blah, Maya, blah blah blah. At the time, it felt like all my questions were being answered. So I decided to join and see just where things would go. Sometime in September, the Digital Craftworx was born. After a problem with DTI, it was renamed to the Digital Foundry. It started out really promising and I was really enjoying it. I got to do photography and graphics work and met lots of interesting people.

Oh, I forgot to mention, sometime around July, I started the
pROsins boards on a crappy ipbfree forum. The pROsins boards is a forum for the assassin class in Philippines Ragnarok Online. The original forum was hosted on a shitty server, so on August 3, 2004, the current pROsins boards was created and we've been there ever since. It's a happy little community of some great players who love being assassins despite their underdog rep. I've made lots of good friends in there. ^_^

It was also during that time that the house added some more inhabitants. At first, it was just me, Jaypee my bro, Uting our sidekick and Lyka our 4 year old doberman. Then after some time, Paeng, Bernie and Phillip moved in. So the house beace very loud and felt very much alive as opposed to being empty and boring.

It was in early August that I got back in touch with one of my friends, Kay. We bumped into each other in MO2 after she attended a South Border concert on August 13, 2004. I really hate to shortcut this part of my life but if I start to talk about Kay now, this post will become way too long, so I think it would be best if she gets her own post reserved just for her. Luv yah, Kay!

Early September, Mom, Dad and JP went to the States for vacation. I was stuck in Bacolod because I wanted to concentrate on the business. On the day they left, I was given money that was supposed to be used for paying the bills and stuff for the house and feed me for the next month. But it just so happened that life decided to kick me in the ass on that very same day. I kept the money in my wallet because I was planning to deposit it the next day (they left on a Sunday). Then woohoo! What incredible timing for me to have my pockets picked! In retrospect I do believe it was a sign, it had to be. God was warning me. I only realized this now as was typing this post. It was an omen of my impending financial doom.

Life at that point was really shitty. I felt like I was at an all time low. I didn't have much money for food or Ragnarok and was unhappy with work. I did, however, get to spend alot of time with Nang Luisa. We would hang out all the time with her classmates in law school then they'd let me tag along on their adventures. At the same time, the pROsins boards was continuing to grow, little by little.

To be continued again...

Friday, July 15, 2005

Do the (iPod) Shuffle?

Continuation of Unexpected plot twists will be put on hold until later tonight...

I'm hardly an impulsive buyer, I hate wasting money on something I'd end up putting on a shelf and forgetting. My common practice is to thoroughly check reviews on the internet about that certain product, then if it looks promising, ask myself if I really, really want it. That's saved me quite a large number of pesos.

These past few days, the iPod Shuffle has been tickling my spending bone. I guess I consider myself to be quite the audiophile and it just seems natural to be drawn to the Shuffle's charms. It just so happens that today my budget will finallybe able to accomodate the purchase. So the past few hours have been spent in gadget review sites, reading every single detail possible.

Short story shortened, by the end of today, there should be an iPod Shuffle (512Mb-flavored) in my possession.

edit July 15, 2005 11:52 PM:
Ugh... What a load of crap. The money I'm supposed to have to buy the iPod hasn't arrived. Purchase will be postponed until further notice.

Unexpected plot twists... part one

It's been quite a while since my original webpage/pseudo-blog went the way of the dinosaur. Alot has happened since then. According to the old website, my last post was way back in March, 2004, seems there's alot for me to recall. Here's just a quick summary of all that has happened since then.

Back in early 2004, Lolo Roming was in and out of the hospital several times. It was the beginning of a really tough time for the family. We spent long stretches in Manila and in Bacolod with Lolo in the hospital. Every prayer said was asking for his recovery. Everything else became a 2nd priority. Tita Tang and Tito Manuel's families came on several different occasions just to be with Lolo and show their unending support. However, I guess it was all just too much for him and God decided to finally let him rest on July 25th of 2004.

When Lolo died, all our lives changed. To me, it felt as if the world was spinning out of control. But in the middle of everything, it became apparent just how strong the bond of our family was. It was impossible to miss, we all came together in that one tragic moment and helped each other get by. Makes me proud to be part of such a supportive and close-knit family. During that time, I also realized how many people's lives my Lolo touched. All the stories people would tell just put me in awe of the man.


Back at the time, I tried to go on with my life, but the whole situation took it's toll on me. In June of that year, the plan was to go back to school and start studying Architecture, but that didn't push through. It was also around that time that I moved out of the dorm and moved to my dad's old house with my brother. The class under Sir TJ finally started, but by the time it ended, I lost almost all my desire for programming. I felt so depressed and didn't know what to do anymore.

But sometime around August, I got in touch with an old friend who was almost ready to start up a multimedia studio...


to be continued...

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Hit the ground running...

Some people believe that life is just a series of planned events and that you are bound to follow your destiny from the moment you are concieved. You're just a really long trail of falling dominos, only stopping upon the moment you take your last breath. I find that so fucking depressing.

I like to look at it in a different perspective, that your life is the end product of every choice you've ever made and the effects of external factors that could not be avoided. I'm not saying that once you start to take a certain path that you won't be able to go back and deviate from it. Exceptional people have the ability to take charge of their lives and change the direction in which they are going. Seems easier to swallow that you have control over who you are and will be.


Whether I'm right or not is impossible to find out, but that's beside the point. The main purpose of this blog is to pretty much document the pitstops, curves, forks and intersections along the path of my life. It'd also be a place to post some random expletives during my rough days and ramble endlessly about pointless nothings.
 
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