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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Me in 2005

In an effort to try to document how I see myself and how I change throughout the years, I want to post my "About Me" section in my Friendster profile. I'll try to do this every year. Maybe next year, it'll be exactly the same word-for-word, maybe not...

When people hear for the first time that I was born and raised in Chicago, they expect me to be some kind of crazy, liberated kinda guy. But to their surprise, they find me to be more reserved and conservative. I'm actually really shy around new people and keep pretty quiet. There are some crazy streaks, but I like to keep that side of myself hidden for only my close friends.

Wise ninja once say... less talk, less mistake...

Anyone who knows me knows that computers are a huge part of my life. My day isn't complete if I can't spend some time in front of my PC. Yes, I'm a computer geek. And I'm proud to be one! You can quote me on that!

My relationship with God is healthy. I make it a point to always spend time to talk to Him and praise Him for the blessings He has given me. I am nothing without Him.

I believe in the goodness in people. Everyone deserves a chance to prove themselves. I'm a very trusting person, if you abuse that trust, I'll make sure you regret it. (oooh! scary, huh?)

Hopeless romantic? Yeah that's me. I am such a fool when it comes to matters of the heart. I believe so much in love and it's incredible magic. How far would I go for love? To the limit. Makes you wanna ask me, is it a powerful driving force or my biggest weakness? Ask me again when I'm older and wiser. We'll see if the choices I made and risks I take either get me scarred or pay off in the end.

You might think I'm just a goofy dreamer with my head in the clouds. I don't blame you. Just don't get in my way as I try my darndest to make those dreams come true.

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Number 9 on the Blacklist

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Despite getting only about 2 hours of gametime each night, I'm steadily making my way up the Blacklist in Need for Speed: Most Wanted. Just last night I made it to number 9, now the next target is Jewels, Blacklist number 8. My current car is the Porsche Cayman S. This is a sweet ride, courtesy of Baron, the former Blacklist number 10. In case you don't know yet, I love Porsches.

listening to: Fall Out Boy - Grand Theft Autumn

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Flashing Lights and Loud Noises

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you are all doing well this Christmas season.

These past few days I've been playing Need for Speed: Most Wanted on my PC. For those of you who have played the NFS: Underground series, Most Wanted more or less takes over where Underground 2 left off. This time, however, you do your racing during the daytime, which puts the police hot on your trail. But don't think that's the only change. Most Wanted has several differences when compared to Underground. Those expecting more of the same might end up disappointed, but don't let that dissuade you from playing this game.

While Underground put more emphasis on tricking out your ride to make it look cooler, Most Wanted requires you to embrace the "dark side" of street racing. The more notorious you are, the more "Bounty Points" you get. This is done by breaking as many traffic laws as you can. Ram police and civilian vehicles, destroy property, overspeed, whatever. This will help you climb the Blacklist, the list of the top 15 most notorious racers. No matter how good a racer you are, you can't continue unless you increase your bounty.

The game's graphics are intense, but that doesn't mean those with lesser video cards can't enjoy Most Wanted. I'm running the game with my crappy GeForce FX 5200. No offense, I'm just used to my old faithful GeForce FX 5600 (you are dearly missed). Anyway, despite how much I dislike the 5200, Most Wanted runs quite well on it. You'll just need to lower the detail settings a bit. Take note that even with all settings at low, the game still looks great! With every setting on high, you can see how photo-realistic the game is, but you'd need a more powerful video card to achieve decent framerates at those settings. The soundtrack has the same attitude as Underground 2 and sounds ok, but I think most will agree that the original Underground's was the best. The game's sound is great, the engine sounds are top notch and the police chatter sounds authentic.

You get to choose from a great variety of cars to customize and upgrade, including some exotics like Porsches and Lamborghinis. On a personal note, my favorite, the Mazda Miata, is gone! *sobs* There are lots of great cars available, so it's not a huge loss. I'm looking forward to getting behind the wheel of a Porsche 911 and customizing it. On the subject of customizing, it's not as detailed as Underground is. Gone are the neon lights, exhaust pipes, hydraulics and other little things. Body kits are sold by the set, no longer by piece, but you still get to add roof scoops, hood mods, rims and spoilers. I'm a stickler for details myself and loved being able to customize every single part, so this is a minus to me. For the most part, it doesn't affect the gameplay too much, so most of you probably won't even care.

The racing itself is pretty straightforward compared in Most Wanted, Drift and Street X modes have been scrapped. The AI drivers are pretty much what you'd expect. Earlier levels, it's easy to catch up to them even when they have huge leads, but in later levels, you pay for every mistake you make. The police chases are the icing on Most Wanted's cake. In the beginning of the game, it's fun to toy around with them, but once you get to the later levels of the game, you take a pounding. The measly squad cars are magically transformed into specialized corvettes and heavy SUVs. They become insanely aggresive and travel in packs. In the higher levels, they deploy spike strips, helicopters and roadblocks to stop you. You should never underestimate the boys in blue, they're fierce and don't give up easily. In order to get rid of them, you can either ram them until you take them out or you'll have to make use of the Pursuit breakers. These are parts of the environment marked on the map (like water towers, gas stations, yachts) that can be destroyed that will either delay or take out the cops long enough for you to make your escape. Once you're out of visual range, you have to stay hidden until a cooldown meter fills up. If a cop sees you in before this meter is filled, the chase starts all over again.

The Verdict? Need for Speed: Most Wanted is huge fun, one police chase and you'll be hooked.

listening to: Gorillaz - Dare

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Taking some time to think...

Yes, I'm sorry for the lack of posts lately. Every time I sit in front of the computer, the thought process just doesn't seem to want to start. Other times, I'm raring to go, but then something happens to stop me, like a brownout. There's a lot that I've been wanting to post about, fate is just not cooperating. Anyway, I'm here at home in Victorias for the Christmas weekend. Let's try to get something done today.

It's almost 2006... Looking back on the past year, it's been another whirlwind of emotions and life-altering changes. Obviously, the first thing that comes to my mind would be the situation between me and Kay. All that's left for me to do is to just leave things up to God. If He will bring the two of us together again, then I'll be waiting patiently for that day. If He brings someone else into my life to heal this pain, then so be it. I'll just have to try and keep myself sane for the time being. I guess it's just this sense of hope that is holding me together. One thing is certain though, no matter what happens, I'll always be thankful that Kay is a part of my life.

In terms of health, my overall condition has deteriorated over the course of the year. Several factors, including the time I spent in the studio, the time I got really sick in January, the sleepless nights from doing plate work and an overall lousy lifestyle took its toll on my health. My weight is still pretty much the same as it was in the beginning of the year, but my physical appearance is telling a different story. These past few days I've been stuffing myself with as much food as possible. Then when I get back home, I'm gonna try to do some weight lifting again.

Going back to school is turning out to be one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. The challenges are intense, just the way I like them. It's such a great feeling to be learning so much. At the same time, my classmates are the best, they're a blast to be around. Needless to say, each of them are pretty weird in their own different ways. I feel like I'm right where I belong. Hehe

listening to: Pussycat Dolls - StickwitU

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Commercial Ninja Services

Let's face it, ninja are a dime-a-dozen these days. It's pretty hard getting work. Many of my fellow graduates/clanmates of Ninja School haven't had a contract in a long time. To my comrades out there, if you need some extra cash, you can try these establishments and make use of your elite ninja skills for other purposes.

Commercial Ninja Services - "From lawn care to chiropractors to pizza delivery, ninjas have the skills you need."

Moving with Stealth...

The other day, JM commented that my posts usually aren't too "Ninja-iy". Well, he's right, there are hardly any Ninja-related posts in my blog. So here's a little something-something you guys might find useful. Got it from one of my ninja textbooks.

Guidelines for stealth walking
Excerpt from "The Mystic Arts of the Ninja" by Stephen K. Hayes

1. Maintain balance control by allowing your body weight to sink and be carried by deeply flexed knees.

2. Remember to breathe along with your movement. Unconsciously holding your breath can unknowingly produce unneeded muscle tension, and could result in gasping release of breath if you are startled or accidentally unbalanced.

3. Stay alert to the entire scene. Do not become so engrossed in watching your feet that you do not notice other people an elements entering the surroundings.

4. Use all joints for movement, emphasizing fluidity through the engagement of the ankles, knees, and hips for stepping. Avoid the lazy and dangerous habit of stiffening knees and swinging the entire leg from the hip.

5. Maintain your weight and balance on your grounded leg while you move the other leg into position to bear the weight. When absolute silence is a must, avoid distributing your weight over both legs at the same time.

6. If practical, allow your hands to float lightly in front of and beside your torso, one arm higher and one arm lower, to detect possible obstructions before your committed body weight encounters them.

7. Pause and hold your position if you feel that you have accidentally caused too much noise. Listen for signs that you were heard, such as the movement of others or the immediate silencing of background noise following your slip. Sink a little lower on your knees to physically relax what could normally jump into your body with alarm. Take a deep breath and release it slowly to further relax. Continue your pause for as long as you feel is necessary to regain composure and allow possible listeners to decide they did not hear anything after all.

8. Be as patient as possible. If speed of travel is not important, take as much time as you can. Impatience and the resultant hasty movement that it encourages are the greatest dangers to the person who must move silently without detection.

9. Keep your movement appropriate to your surroundings. Do not go to greater lengths than necessary to conceal your movement, while at the same being aware of what others entering the area may see if they cannot hear. Total silence may not be needed when moving through wooded or densely populated areas where scattered noise is a natural part of the environment. Also be aware that low profile crawling or sliding may be the only way to move silently without being seen in some locations.

listening to: Fall Out Boy - Sugar, We're Going Down

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Wannabe photographer on the loose!

To my friendsters living in the Metro Bacolod area. Is your profile pic still a bunch of anime characters? Are you bored and unimpressed of your old pics scanned from your pictures laying around at home? Maybe you'd like to have a new picture taken?

I'm not promising anything spectacular, but I do promise to do my best to get the shot you ask for. I'd really like to get the practice. Maybe you've got this really great or wacky idea for your pic, that's cool too. Let's put our heads together and maybe some great shots will come out. Who knows?

You can message me through friendster and I'll let you know how to contact me. Okies?

listening to: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Driver's High (Great Teacher Onizuka OST)

New Banner in Blogspot

Out of nowhere, I felt the need to create something.

After sitting blankly in front of my computer for several minutes, I went over to look here at my blog and decided to finally add a banner. The effect I wanted was pretty straightforward and simple, so it wasn't any problem. It took all of 20 minutes to finish it. There was a bit of a problem working with the actual code to make it all nice and seamless on the actual template, but it's ok now.

I'm satsified with how the overall layout looks for now, but it probably won't stay that way for long. At least I got something done. Maybe this is a sign of me getting out of this slump. God, I sure hope so.

Please let me know what you think. ^_^

listening to: Bonnie Pink - It's Gonna Rain! (Rurouni Kenshin OST)

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Frustration

I gave up.

For the first time ever, I just sat back and allowed myself to be defeated. In reality, there was still a chance for me, but in my mind, it was just too tiring. It's not that I found it too difficult, it's just that, recently, EVERYTHING was going wrong at the same point in time. My frustration reached a new peak and it just destroyed my will to continue. This never happened before. Those who know me know that I'd never give up, He would always give me that extra nudge, but it was too much this time.

The repercussions of this choice are still unclear. It could snowball into a huge problem in the future, ultimately leading to my undoing. Or, God-willing, I might get my act together, reverse my luck and recover from this fucked-up mess. Right now, I'm too depressed to have a positive oulook on my future as an Architect. There has to be some way to get myself out of this funk. I'm just praying for something, anything to go right. Just a smidgen of hope to help me get through this.

I need some inspiration.

listening to: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Fourth Ave. Cafe (Rurouni Kenshin OST)

Thursday, December 01, 2005

The missing piece to my puzzle

Here Tonight
Hale

So long to you my love
Don't be afraid to run away
I know you'll be okay
Just take your time to find

But I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here tonight

Made up my mind on this
It’s too late for me to hold you back
Maybe to short or dumb
To cry for you but I will anyway
(Chorus)

It's all my fault
To feel this way for you that day
I know I am and I will
Though it's wrong, so wrong, so wrong…
(Chorus2)

Chorus:
Cause I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
Oh I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here tonight…Oh

Chorus2:
Cause I need you here tonight
I need you here inside
Oh I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here

Oh I need you, I need you
Oh I need you here inside
Oh I need you, I need you
I really, really need you here

Extreme crappiness...

This morning started out as bad as it possibly could. What the heck was going on? It felt like Murphy's Law should have been named Tim's Law for this morning.

First of all, for some reason, my alarm had no effect. I woke up at almost 7 in the morning. My class starts at 7:30. After a hurried shower, I got my stuff together and by 7:30 ran out of the house. No breakfast for me. I was already riding the jeepney, already about 10 minutes away from the house, when all of a sudden, I realized that my ID card was nowhere to be found. There was no way to get into school without my ID, so I had to go back and look for it. After spending another 10 minutes going back and 5 minutes looking for the stupid thing, I was back on another jeepney and more than 20 minutes late already.

By the time I got to my class, I was 45 minutes late. I had no idea what was going on, my brain was really out of sync. Our teacher let us go about an hour early, then some of my classmates started scrounging around for paper for some reason. I forgot that we had an assignment to pass for the next period. Panicking, I tried to get it done as well. Well, no such luck for me, by the time my teacher got in, I was barely 1/5 finished. After a quick discussion about a problem in the assignment, he gave us a quiz. Wondering what else could go wrong, all I could do was sigh. At first I was happy because it felt like my brain was starting to function, but then when it came to the last part, I had nothing. I could feel the answer try to poke it's way out of my head, but it just wouldn't come. It was right there, ready to just burst out. But my brain picked the perfect time to have mental constipation. Damn it.

After our class ended, I decided to go play a round of DotA with some classmates. My luck seemed to be picking up. I was playing pretty well. Heck, I was close to dominating. We were minutes away from a win, but for some reason, I messed up. A wrong decision on my part cost us the whole game. Everything that can go wrong, will go wrong.

Thankfully, the rest of the day passed without any more disasters. What a load of crap this morning was. I was so frustrated. Let's hope this streak of bad luck has ended.

listening to: Sponge Cola - Crazy for You (Live)

 
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