Saturday, December 03, 2005
I gave up.
For the first time ever, I just sat back and allowed myself to be defeated. In reality, there was still a chance for me, but in my mind, it was just too tiring. It's not that I found it too difficult, it's just that, recently, EVERYTHING was going wrong at the same point in time. My frustration reached a new peak and it just destroyed my will to continue. This never happened before. Those who know me know that I'd never give up, He would always give me that extra nudge, but it was too much this time.
The repercussions of this choice are still unclear. It could snowball into a huge problem in the future, ultimately leading to my undoing. Or, God-willing, I might get my act together, reverse my luck and recover from this fucked-up mess. Right now, I'm too depressed to have a positive oulook on my future as an Architect. There has to be some way to get myself out of this funk. I'm just praying for something, anything to go right. Just a smidgen of hope to help me get through this.
I need some inspiration.
listening to: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Fourth Ave. Cafe (Rurouni Kenshin OST) |
by @ 12:13 PM
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